process

My cat Bentley died this month. He was 15 years old. I used to think that if I didn't have the responsibility of pet ownership, I would be more free to travel or move somewhere completely different. Now I am married, I am a Mom, and we have a house half built. I am more stable here than I have ever been, but the cats are gone. Bentley was a very special presence in my life. As my brother said "he had a bigger than life personality." Grief makes me appreciate time. I like to see things change to remind me that life will always keep going with or without my input.

The house looks different with its new standing seem roof. The wind and the snow did not seem to slow down the roofers who worked this week. They put the roof up in great time and it already has a new layer of snow. Tilt had sheet rock delivered. I think he really wants to get it on the walls. His new work schedule and the holidays are slowing things down a bit.

I am working on lighting design and kitchen layout. A couple windows wound up being placed differently than our original plans, so I have to rethink and rework a couple things. It is handy to be able to go upstairs, draw an idea on the sub floor, and see if it will work. The project is fun. It's like doing a jigsaw puzzle, trying to figure out what will work in a space.

I found a sunflower seed on the floor in the kitchen. I have not set up my bird feeder yet, so I am not sure where it tracked in from. It is now a little sprout in my prayer plant. It is nice to see against the blowing snow on the other side of the window.